Today that truth is, George R. R. Martin is not your bitch.

Only replace 'George R. R. Martin' with your author of choice. And remember that authors have lives, too.

I mean, it's okay to think, god dammit, why isn't se in front of ser goddamn computer/notebook writing down what comes next asjdfhjakdxhf.

But it's really not okay to think you're justified in meaning that. :\

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( Tsubasa 220 is LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVEOMG. )

I-- I'm all choked up. XD; Eee.

Also, I don't know what to do tonight now that I've finished plot snaking. (Well, okay, I know the OBVIOUS answer, but actually I still have some pretty swift drawing and hating on my artistic fail to accomplish, so I'll probably deal with that first.) Dinner might be a plan at some point, though.

Also working out where my mother is. I'm going to assume yoga.

[EDIT] The complete plot snake. TAKE THAT!

OH MY GOD TSUBASA 216 = AWESOME AJFDDK KDF. I DIDN'T KNOW THEY WERE THIS MUCH OTP FOR ME UNTIL I SAW THEM AGAIN AND BURST INTO TEARS. XD;

(And no, we are not talking about Sakura/Syaoran. :D To-yaaaaaaaa. :DDDD)

Slept like a dream when I finally got there, from about one until probably fiveish. Then dozed for a bit 'til half seven. .......okay, when I read the numbers, that's still a crappy night of sleep, but I feel all right and that's the important thing.

IF YOU CAN SEE THIS PLEASE CLICK IT. IT IS DELAN AND ILARIO'S BABY so it is probably destined to die AND I WANT IT TO LIVE BUT CANNOT GET DC TO LOAD ENOUGH TO GET IT CLICKS. T___T

Today I must:
- wash my sheets
- dust my bookshelves
- dry my sheets
- shower
- breakfast
- take rubbish down
- organise dinner
- tidy desk
- write more plot snake
- draw more Hiru
- paint more Felix
- start Virtu
- vacuum my room
- wash clothing
- eyeball the cupboard until it organises itself
- procrastinate a lot and vow to clean the cupboard tomorrow
- wash my wrist braces
- dry my wrist braces
- dry clothing
[EDIT] - oh right, and the important thing, which is: get on to medibank re. this subsidised rate I'm meant to be able to claim???
- test external hard drive
- find warranty info and sort out warranty claim if possible
- go to talk to manager of library re. invisible book?

........probably not in that order. Does this list give you insight into how my mind works? Oh, dear god, I need tea. -_-

Bleach 348: *faps to Ulquiorra*

Tsubasa 215: jdsfhasdkfjsdfhjasdhfjashjsd OH GOD WHAT IS HAPPENING OH GOD

Mélusine: Oh, Mildmay. Oh, god, Mildmay, I love you so much, oh, oh, Mildmay.
(HIRU: Here we go again.)

Khaos: Oh god, Jamie. DDD: I. I. Oh god. You. *sobs and hugs him* I KNEW YOU HAD A REASON FOR BEING A DICK.



Uhhh, work was okay except for the five million products we got in at seven o' clock this evening!
ME AND ANTONIO: *stare at the boxes*
ME: ...those kettles are the perfect size for ramparts; we could make a fort.
ANTONIO: And a car! :D

I am starting to get the feeling Charlotte dislikes my music. The feeling is sadly mutual. +_+

YUUKO-SAN.

T____T

*frets*






...also, Ulquiorra should probably stop being so awesome.

Well, kitten!plot has been received with some enthusiasm, so I suppose it is now a given. *adds it to the list* I think I need to make an effort to clear out that list this year, or abandon it, because there's probably no way I can write that much and also write my novel.

In other news, Tsubasa. Mummy and Daddy love Syaoran very much. I get the feeling I am going to cry soon. Also, if that's all they get, that was very anticlimactic.

Off to clean my room and then to alleyne's, for... well, writing while she WoWs! XD And probably writing these epic fics or something, eh?

*considers bringing FF7 for the sake of at least pretending she cares about F&F*

...oh, that is a lie. I still care about it. I just. I have written it before. |D; It is no longer exciting. As exciting. It will be once I get into it again, but enh.

I need to stop being angry at work for not paying me properly because I do not think an ulcer of rage is going to help things. It is difficult to stop being angry at this point, which possibly alerts you to my stress levels, as I usually get angry immediately and am over it fifteen seconds later.

On the bright side, I can go pick up Sarah Monette's The Bone Key from Pulp Fiction in my lunch break tomorrow. :DDDDDDD (I would not be picking it up if I had not ordered it specially and sworn to the nice man that I would pick it up come hell or high water because he was very dubious about ordering it in for me. XD Poor guy. I hope people don't abandon him with strange books often.)

Class today was fun - we talked and I drew and I did my presentation in a way not unlike vomiting, and then we all went up to the guild bar and played Upwords for upwards of two hours. XD It was good fun. I probably should have come home straight afterward, but fuck that. I like those people.

I just wish that socialising did not leave me so tired in my everywhere. |D; This is already the way to tremendous fail. I'm exhausted. I... I really can't do people. I really do need to hire someone to pretend to be me at conventions or I will probably pass out in the middle of proceedings.

Want to... do something. Tonight. Other than sleep. Not sure what, yet, but it'll come to me, and it is not video games, no matter what my headspace thinks. My left hand is still half-numb from the shot yesterday, so I don't think games would go down so well.

[EDIT] ( I forgot the HOLiC raw was out! jhdfajs! )

very tired now so no self censoring and certainly no puctuatuin wahey but will read some petshop before bed because PETSHOP BITCHES I CAN HAS IT and also I want to cut out all the muscles along my spine and have thjem replaced with robitics just saying and i have work tomrorow as well but at least i will not have alan who uis a lazy fucker hdjf ahjs jshddhj i had a massage tiday and it did not help anything much really

aslo a lady called to complain about josh not because he is a sleaze but because he didn
t shave today.

SO AMUSED.

[EDIT] Tsubasa 201 = oh my god ;______________________;

[EDIT] Also, re. Shin Petshop v6: Omg, Wu Fei + Riyokuen = OTPPPPPPpppjhgfsfghsfg and I love Femto more than any other cat srsltyjhdfsjahfjshd. <3

I started typing whole words backwards during the essay, so I thought it might be time for a bit of a break. I might be finished by midnight, but that's only a might, not a probably.

(Certainly not probably if I keep gazing adoringly into Sanga's elbow fins, which does not look to stop any time soon.)

No storm. :( Lousy fifteen minutes of rain. Leviathan is a cocktease.

[EDIT] I would be more excited about the new Tsubasa chapter if it were not all bloody re-iteration. Grrrgh. Why do you do this to us, CLAMP?

[EDIT] Also, for the record: I am not a perfume person, but. The thought of perfuming myself with crumbling paper and ancient cracked leather actually makes me shiver happily to myself.

Bibliophile? Moi?

[EDIT] ...so far, the perfumes that I want from that list add up to $200. US. But, for my own sake:

• Agnes Nutter
• War
• Famine
• Crowley
• Aziraphale
• Nanny Ashtoreth
• Wensleydale (EVERYBODY LOVES WENSLEY, OKAY.)
• The Buggre-Alle-This Bible

$200 for 40ml of perfume is totally reasonable, right?

My dreams are often vivid when I'm exhausted, and last night was no different.

First there was the dream set in my grandmother's house in Alderley, which basically involved Umbrella Corp. meets Shinra scientists, because they'd tested the virus on a village (below Alderley? I don't know XD), and a very pretty and completely androgynous scientist who reminded me of Felix. I could not actually tell you if s/he was male or female, which is pretty much a first for me despite living in the Valley. After I woke up (at six-thirty) it occurred to me that se only had the virus in hir left arm, and was working to keep the virus localised and to find a cure for it. So, like, this scientist is now officially my hero because all through the dream I was trying to watch the politics between Professor Felix and the head scientist (who was probably Hojo but didn't feature heavily) and squealing over the way that Professor Felix chose hir words. XD

Then there was the dream involving John and James on a mountain, sort of like Mt Coot-tha only not, and I know I've been there in a dream before. It's dark, and there are random concrete structures - like water towers, but not actually water towers, and there are a lot of stairs and passageways and that sort of thing. Anyway, the gist of the dream was basically trying to look after James in a way that was different to John's way of looking after James, and, really, sometimes I am just a 'tard. Because yeah, I'd do that. I do do that. James keeps offering to bring a new modem from John's place and all I can think is, I'd rather fucking die.

It's not really that I can't stand to take anything from him, though. It's more that by taking anything from him, you make him believe that he has some kind of power over you, and I think he's had enough power over my life, so I can't bear to give him more, real or imagined.

In any case, having woken up at six-thirty it took me two hours before I went back to sleep for two hours, so now it's kind of late. :\ I was perfectly awake at six-thirty, too. Also, my throat is getting sore just in time for the Exhibition. -_- Woooooo.

Officially the cutest playing card in the history of cheap anime-themed playing cards. ♥

Mmm, vampire twins. I have missed you. I have also missed Seishirou, whose scary stalker ways are so, so beautiful for reasons I am not quite able to articulate. And, oh god, the line. It's a stab in the heart every time. CLAMP certainly understands how to wound people. (Also, how did I miss Syaoran in broken glass on the splash page for ch132? *___* PARALLELS. I can has them!) And Kurogane. "Are you that afraid to believe in someone?" ;A; RIGHT IN THE HEART.

I am ginger-flavoured~! XD And I'm not sure I'll ever get the dough out from under my fingernails. Also, I cannot decide what to wear to work what? the movies tonight. >_>; It should be warm, I think. But past that I just have no idea. :D; Anyway~! Cookies should be done pretty soon, and then I can sit them out to cool, take a shower, decorate, and then they will be perfectly fresh when Wyrren gets here. >:D Muwahaha!

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You know how I was joking that I wouldn't have clothes on when you got here, Wyrren?

|D;;;

[EDIT]

OH GOD WHY.

(I have "Roketto-dan yo! Eien ni!" in my head again, and must therefore belt out the Team Rocket theme in any language which occurs. :( :( :( One day I will be cured of this sickness.)

[EDIT]

LUCKY LUCKY NICE TO MYUUTSU~
KON PAN GOROONTO AMAETAI
HAPPY HAPPY AIMU SOU (PIPPI~!)
DORAMA WA KORE KARA
MA~DA~TSU~BO~MI

L-U-C-K-Y L-U-C-K-Y
(RAKKI!)



(No, really, this is the greatest song in the world. :'D IT IS MADE OF PUNS. I'm sure I've uploaded it before but I should upload it again! TEAM ROCKET ARE STILL MY ONE TRUE FANDOM.)

( Tsubasa 189 = OMFG. )

Also, Selenityshiroi says that there's a Subaru/Seishirou splash page coming up. :3

Got mum and James packed off to the coast for the day, despite panic about Sirianni chickens not being done. (I'm really going to have to work at calling that Emporium from now on. :| And picking up phones with Emporium, because I doubt new!Tony will be much impressed.)

I know it's impossible for me to get to the subplots in the first three thousand words, but I still have this need to work them all out before I write. I'm going to do a little bit of poking about-style research, but that's it. The era of the story still hasn't resolved itself particularly well, so I'm thinking it just needs to be incredibly vague. Fortunately, hat-wearing apparently ceased in the early fifties, so Ash no longer necessarily needs a hat - this is excellent because Ash looks ridiculous in a hat.

I think I'm showing my contradictory nature in that Conductor is a story about how bad for us stories are. XD;

[EDIT] .......

And Ash thought the sailor fuku was bad. :| The fifties are going to kill me. (Or Ash. Probably Ash.)

SO, I HEARD SOME PRETTY WEIRD THINGS ABOUT TSUBASA 189 AND NOW I'M, UH, I'M KIND OF WORRIED. :D; PLEASE DON'T BREAK ME, CLAMP.

Just crawled out of bed half an hour ago, and feeling much better for having slept in. None of the brain-leaking-out-ears feeling that I had yesterday morning, that's for certain, and that is a blessing and a half.

The plan for today is to complete one piece of concept art, figure out how to make my borders pretty without having to fuck around with Word, and print and hand in everything for InterWri. Then, I should probably start to work on reviewing all my Japanese stuff, since today will be the second class I've missed, regardless of the smallness of its content, and I don't want to fuck up during the end of semester when they move on to stuff I don't already know.

That said, I am going to work out what comes next in Conductor today. I'm pretty sure it's something as simple as a meeting with Deneve Haydee, but not entirely sure. I'll need to rewrite the opening, make the tokens a little more obvious, all that sort of thing. Heh. Yesterday's writing exercise was fun. I love the way that no matter what I'm doing with the story, Chaz seems to know what he's doing.

(I also kind of love the fact that even though I've called him Chaz or Charlie all through his inception, Ash refuses to call him anything but Sticks, entirely missing the point of his given names until far too late and, as far as I can tell, continuing to call him Sticks, anyway. Dork. ♥)

[EDIT] Yaaaay, SeMagic fixed the edit function for non-LJ sites! I CAN EDIT AGAIN INSTEAD OF JUST SPAMMING. :D

[EDIT] Making use of it purely to communicate my PURE HORROR:

I had a dream last night that, when the sale of the Valley Siriannis went through, I went to work at Ascot.

WORDS DO NOT DESCRIBE. D:

Work was pretty good! We made 18k, which is phenomenal for a Thursday, and Luke dropped by for a surprise inspection, because apparently surprise inspections are happening now. Uh. Right. Whatever.

( Tsubasa 188 is confusing. )

Life has involved three Pokémon references today; I am taking this as a sign that I need to actually pick up PKMN Pearl at some point in life. (All I remember is that I was failing to train a Shinx to a state of usefulness, and that I was missing my Ampharos from Silver. XD I think Silver may actually be the last game that I really enjoyed... I still liked the designs in Sapphire, but the new teams made me want to kill myself a little bit, and, god, deny me a Bellsprout for a good portion of any game and I immediately turn against it. That's my problem with Pearl, too, really. Sigh. Oh, Pokémon. Why did you have to get too big for your boots?)

I don't even really read this manga and I want this print. It just looks good.

I need to go back to Shousetsu*Bang*Bang and start marking favourite stories again, because I've read some really fabulous ones in the last week or so... The last one I read that I really enjoyed rather thoroughly (possibly due to listening to the Pirates of the Caribbean OSTs at the time) was The Ballad of Barefoot Robin, or The Ridiculous Seduction of Lieutenant Worthington, and part two of the same. XD It was just really fun. And I liked Barefoot Robin. I really appreciate s2b2 because it's just... man, it's nice to see the characters people come up with. There was this other one with a FANTASTIC FUCKING MAGICIAN/JESTER, OMG. I've gotta find that again and link you all to it, it was so far beyond amazing.

Eh heh. Anyway. ♥ I think it's time this Ravie got to bed. Lots to do over the weekend, including but not limited to:
- emailing Barbara-sensei with scanned jury duty summons and request to do kanji exam #1 early
- look into exactly what is necessary for interwri proposal
- start dotpointing proposal
- write moar conductor
- get mobile phone back?
- WORK: SAT 6.30 - 10.30 AM
- start assembling novel folio
- also start dotpointing questions for faux Paris Review interview
- no, really, write moar conductor
- stop thinking about seifuku!Charlie; it will only end in tears (Ash's)
- write a prompt or two for no_true_pair? You've only done one so far and it would be a terrible waste of good prompts not to write them all.
- post up to the end of 2006 at happenstance (I AM SORRY FLIST BUT IT MUST BE DONE)
- REMEMBER THAT YOU HAVE NOT YET BOUGHT YOUR FATHER A BIRTHDAY PRESENT AND HE DOES DESERVE A MOLESKINE TO GLEAM AT

...actually, maybe I'd best limit it to this. |D;

[EDIT] I show my appreciation for posts written well!

Also, I am getting that adult content error whenever I try to edit a post; this is bizarre. :|

( Tsubasa 187. )

I think Jack and Jill may be Kondekir's progeny. Either that or I just really like drawing blonds in robes and scarves.

8BT continues to make me happy because I am a sad panda who ships Red Mage/Thief. :( You do not know what I would give for fic to exist. Seriously. Today's LFG is also pretty fucking awesome, and made me howl with laughter (but I am mildly hysterical at the moment and I was never very good at withstanding puns).

I am still trying to decide whether I should spring an excerpt from Mélusine on the class first thing tomorrow morning. Being that it involves magic, magical abuse and gay all at once in the first two pages, it is essentially all I ever wanted from a book. That said, I don't particularly want the whole class dot-dot-dotting at me when I get up to give a presentation on voice next Friday. ...still, it's a presentation on voice, not a presentation on why the inclusion of gay in a novel is totally awesome. And since Mildmay's voice is one of those rare voices that actually sounds aloud in my head, I'm pretty sure I can wrangle a presentation out of the introduction.

(Hurry up and arrive, books! D: I want to reeeeeeead you.)

Progress on Half Jack has stalled. Mostly because I am tired, cold and hungry, and this makes my hands hurt worse.

[EDIT] ...hmmmm. If I stay up all night, I will be incoherent tomorrow, but I will probably finish this storyboard. If I finish the storyboard tonight, I won't have to come home and then go back to uni to hand the assignment in, and I can have the afternoon to zone out and/or sleep.

...hmmmm...

[EDIT]

First. Five. Frames. =. GET.

Now for the panels with the lineart that I actually like. >:3

[EDIT] Awesome Berserk MMV.

Okay, so it's all well and good to do roadwork with a jackhammer until midnight. I don't often sleep before midnight, anyway, and there's a lot of traffic in the area, so, y'know, it's fine. It's also fine to whippersnipper and shovel out the block next door at the ass crack of dawn. It is not okay to do both these things within a seven hour period. It is especially not okay to do them when I have an exam that day.

Admittedly the exam will be a cakewalk, but the principle still stands. =_= Needs moar sleeeeeeep.

[EDIT] And yet, on the other hand, I'm glad I got up so early because now I can read Tsubasa 186 and HOLiC 154 raws without fearing for getting to uni on time. *_*

( Tsubasa first; then HOLiC. )