Man you absolutely SUCK **EN BALLS in updating. You think those so called 'apologies' are anything to whine about? A real updater with an attention span even WORSE than whatever you have would have gone and updated this piece of crap that has been here rock still since close to four goddamn years. Why
don't you just stop with your **en **-** promises and just go ahead and delete your whole account? It might make us feel better without having to always think if you're gonna update this shitass story.

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All this for a piece of fanfiction. :'D Thanks for the laugh, dearest Psh!

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[EDIT] Aww, and then later in the day I got this:
Just saw the horrible review that was posted for Faith and Feather and I felt
compelled to comment. Just wanted to let you know (and I'm sure you do, but I
think its nice to hear it every once in a while) that not everyone is as
stupid as that selfish, ignorant idiot. Granted, I love the story, and I
really hope you do get around to finishing it ASAP, but I can be patient.
You're not getting paid to write it or anything like that. You're doing it out
of your own free will. No reward besides the feedback you receive. You don't
owe us anything. Frankly, I'm just grateful you’ve posted what you have.
Despite the fact it isn't finished, I've read it several times now, and it’s
always a great read. So, yeah, pointless I know, but I thought I'd let you
know. Like I said, I felt compelled to do this.

PS. Sometimes I really hate people. Okay, quite a lot of the time, actually,
but this really goes to justify my feelings, I think. *shrugs* Thanks for all
your amazing work and all the effort and time you've put into them. It IS
appreciated.

Piccolo999 is lovely, and has always been lovely. :3 Totally unnecessary, but lovely all the same.

YOU GUYS.

Those people who contacted me about a F&F trailer?

TOTALLY MADE AN F&F TRAILER.

*dies of squee*

"Giving the reader a sex scene which is only half right is like giving her half of a kitten. It is not half as cute as a whole kitten: it is a bloody, godawful mess."

( That quote is totally irrelevant except in terms of sheer pedantic detail. This cut is more about WHY I HATE WRITING F&F. Or rather, why I hate myself. )





[EDIT]

And then I say to myself, while rubbing my eyes and squinting over scene breaks, "So, for this bit, I really need to feel more like... America."

Someone tell me that I'm not allowed to make Aeris a zombie.

No, really.

I kind of want to. I hate the way she walks in. She needs to have something wrong with her. I don't like magical resurrection where everything is sparkly!

- get up at 7.30am
- shower
- breakfast
- clean desk
- clean room
- wash sheets
- dry sheets
- research Jackie French
- determine argument for essay
- draft structure
- start writing essay
- scan and email kessira's line edit
- scan and email Annalies's line edit
- endeavour not to kill your hands

[EDIT]

- stop staring at this and wondering how in fuck you are ever going to finish F&F

21,692 / 200,000 (10.0%)

- try to avoid shrieking FOUR DAYS FOUR DAYS FOUR DAYS

Who's ready?

(I know I'm not. And won't be. Until about November 15.)

So far, the NaNo Filter consists of feather_qwill, ignite, howl_for_words, kessira, kuchibue, leviathanmirror, narnizzle, pinkumbrella, selenityshiroi, squeakelala, tainted4life and teacupscientist. Comment now if you want on the NaNo Filter! I KNOW THERE ARE MORE OF YOU OUT THERE. Especially since I'm writing F&F this year. 8DDD

(Considering writing Crystal Coast at the same time, too. Eh heh. Eh heh heh heh. :D;;; 200k fic + 50k novel + -[two weeks] ≠ profit. But. Epic projects of epic and impossibility... so tempting...!)

I need FF7-themed NaNo icons, Y/Y. THERE AIN'T NO GETTIN' OFFA THIS TRAIN WE'RE ON. JUST SIT YOUR ASS DOWN AND WRITE YOUR @#$% 1667. BUT TO ME, THIS LOOKS LIKE A GOLDEN SHINY WIRE OF HOPE! Help me think of more appropriate quotes, guys. And not to make Vincent the NaNo loser of all time because he slept through thirty rounds.

I loaded F&F onto this computer in preparation for NaNo about a week ago, and so the inevitable question has occurred: do you think Craig would accept fanfiction as a project submission? XD I know he won't, but I think the redraft shows more of my writing ability than AtM does at this point.

Speaking of which, I need to post what I have of that before NaNo. It can be next Sunday. Or maybe the week after: the Day of the Dead can be celebrated on this journal through the return of the first twenty thousand words of that fic. XD You get to halfway through the Sephiroth resurrection, which is kind of pathetic for it being eleven months since I started rewriting, but fuck that shit, I've had university to contend with as well.

Speaking of which, back to the grindstone.

Rob Guest died of a stroke. (He was playing the Wizard in Wicked.) :/ I'm sad, because he made a great wizard, and because, well, if the tour's not over then his understudy has a lot of work ahead of him. :/

Also, omg, what is so difficult to understand about Sharp Relief for the YYH fandom? It ain't out of the ball park, guys, and it's already pretty clear that Hiei has trust issues. -_-

[EDIT] Also, lol, it is the second day of NaNoWriMo signups, and the seething mass has already broken the website. XD

This seems the ideal time to ask who wants to be on the NaNo flock for the duration of November? (Think carefully about this; I am going to be writing Faith and Feather for the duration. XD I have little problem with letting people see the draft, since the damn fic is taking so effing long to finish.)

Pen Against Sword says:
nyargh this is SO GOOD
Raven || says:
*grin* See? This is why I am rewriting. XD
Pen Against Sword says:
the prose has an awesome flow
Pen Against Sword says:
I'd compare, but I don't remember much of F&F.
Raven || says:
This is perfectly all right. FORGET THE ORIGINAL.
Pen Against Sword says:
just the basic premise
Raven || says:
IT WAS ALL IN YOUR MIND.
Pen Against Sword says:
something about summons
Pen Against Sword says:
turning into people
Raven || says:
lmao, yes, that about sums it up. XD XD XD
Pen Against Sword says:
and something about a girl
Pen Against Sword says:
named Feather and Reeve.
Raven || says:
"Something about summons."
Raven || says:
I like that. XD
Pen Against Sword says:
rofl
Pen Against Sword says:
that should be the summary.
Pen Against Sword says:
"Eh, somethin' about summons."
Raven || says:
I am totally making it the summary on my IJ. XD
Pen Against Sword says:
oh gawd that's hilarious
Raven || says:
No, fuck that, it is now my faith and feather tag. XD XD XD

Don't ask what made me think of this, but:




J
Y E S
S
U
S

...sometimes Hellsing just happens to my brain, okay? XD;

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This story had me whimpering like an absolute fucking baby; I cannot even tell you how embarrassed I am by this, but blogging for posterity requires honesty in all things. It made me feel hollow and sick and dreadful because apparently that particular form of anxiety is a demon that hangs around to make you emotionally stupid even when you do nothing more strenuous than read about it. This one was also kind of totally awesome, and is illustrated by EK, so wins on many levels, including the one that says no one likes Leonardo best, because no one does, because Leonardo is a shitty ninja turtle.

Unfortunately, now I have to wait another two months for another volume of Shousetsu*Bang*Bang, and more reliably excellent short stories. :( Cry.

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In other writing news, there is so much to foreshadow and peel-back-reveal in F&F. It is very difficult to do any of this without jumping back and forth between scenes and time zones like some kind of crazy hyperactive Spriggan.

That said, rereading what I have, uh, rewritten... I am so much happier with this. XD My characterisation has come a very long way.

Speaking of this universe, though: tainted4life, pinkumbrella, leviathanmirror, kessira and teacupscientist what are our opinions re. mako therapy and human fertility? I want to say that high-class SOLDIERs are altered enough that they're no longer considered strictly human by most genetic processes, particularly given certain things in the absolute plot-vomit that is Crisis Core, but by the same token, it is essentially being infused with further life, and should this not, you know, improve fertility? Yes, I am perfectly serious about this. Talk science to me, guys.

(For the record, this came up because Reeve is trying to decide whether mako-infused bloodstreams can actually be passed on genetically, or even whether ciceqi's amusing little theory about SOLDIERs and blow jobs applies - and, for the record, I think it does. I just cannot believe it never occurred to me before she pointed it out - although given Sephiroth's CC!based whining about donating genetic material, it was only going to be a matter of time. XD)

[EDIT] And now I have Button in the back of my head going, oh, honey, you've picked up the blow glow! HELP ME.

[EDIT] And now I am hunting for the Japanese FF7 script to determine what exactly the word that was translated as "clones" was. Because of course I am having these thoughts at Dad's place, where I do not have FF7 Ultimania Omega.

I'm perfectly mentally alert (or alert as I'm getting, anyway) and yet I feel like operating my limbs is some kind of guy-who-pushes-boulder-up-hill-while-eagle-tears-at-sweetmeats-ian effort.

...okay, so maybe I'm not quite as alert as I thought I was when I started that sentence.

Prometheus! Promethian. Promethian effort. To actually do anything. Yes. Sisyphusian, for the record, and minus the eagle from that first paragraph.

What I actually came here to say was: I am catching the late bus despite the fact that I promised kessira I would get the early bus so I could talk PSOH with her. I think she will understand that if PSOH cannot motivate me at this point, then nothing is going to.

(There needs to be more Vesca art in the world. I want more Vesca icons. I need more Vesca icons! Vescaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.)

Oh, look, the urge to fic for that series is back again. Maybe I'll start reworking Bonnie and Clyde over the holida-- no. No. F&F. F&F is what is happening. There is a game out and everything. F&F, F&F, F&F.